This will be the last post in this 'secret' blog. And this will be the most interesting topic of all times. I'm posting out most of the memories about her over here. Cool eh?

It all started from secondary 1, being tricked into Chinese Orchestra by Mr Teo (culprit). Why? There are limited CCAs in Fuhua, so Mr Teo recommended me to come into CO. This is the start of my interesting life. It all started out with a very very shy boy (me). Yes! I only talked to those who I know in CO. Last time was Bryan only. And this outspoken girl, her, approached me with her group of friends. The 4 erhu ladies. And I remember it was at the coffee shop. Soon, I got to know her better and slowly we became friends.

Soon, Bryan left CO. I have no more friends in CO thus I became even closer to her. In Secondary 2, my dream came true. The girl that i had a crush on likes me too. And great, i become more shy! I accepted to stead with her in my heart but somehow there are misunderstood. All this came from my heart. Nothing is fake! At last she went back to her boyfriend. I was terribly sad. At that time, i thought that i was still young and maybe that was just a normal crush. It will go away after awhile.  That is when i meet shaohui. I liked her. And we stead for 9 months. I broke up with her due to a reason. I realized that who i really love is not shaohui but her. Crazy but true.

As i get closer to her, i begin going out with her. Not that relationship kind but friend kind. Sometimes to the library, sometimes badminton. I remember teaching her maths and her results started to improve. I was very happy. Truly. But great, i was unable to focus on my own work. Haha. I don't teach anyone anything with all my heart and soul. I know she is the only one that i will. And i did!

There was a time when we went to JE library. I hate that moment. She was crying! Because she broke with her boyfriend. I was sad, watching her cry. I did manage to fake a smile to meet her. And the whole session was her crying and studying. I did managed to make her laugh sometimes. The cutest part of her is when she was laughing while crying? or crying while laughing. I don't know.

There is a reason why i love playing badminton. Playing badminton with her is the best moment with her. I can see her laughing and smiling all the way while trying to use the racquet to hit the shuttlecock. Seeing her smiling makes me feel very happy too. That is why no matter how i am busy, i will make time to have a badminton session with her. Even when i am busy, if she ask me to play badminton with me, i will make sure i clear everything for the time being! Except for once, i went prawn fishing with my families. Other than that, i cleared everything.

As my love for her grow slowly, i began to go haywire. I couldn't control myself. That's scary. I confessed to her. And she said that she trust in fate. It depends on how long i can be her bud. My mood was so happy for the whole week. When i thought i got the chance to be with her, i received a very shocking news. Which changed my life. She went back to her boyfriend. I cried for a few days. Not wanting to do anything. Stayed at home. I kept thinking. Did i not care for her enough? Did i not love her enough? Why? The reason is very simple. She love her boyfriend. I guess i will have to bless them. Hope her boyfriend will treat her better than before.

Since i confessed, i know life will not be the same anymore. I prepared for the worst. After that incident, i went back to CO, calling her along. When i looked at her, i know. Its different. She feels like a stranger to me. I can't talk to her. I don't know why? Is it that i hate her? Or shy? I really don't know. Since then, we don't talk. But fate is making fun of me. When we are not talking anymore, my erhu lesson always is before hers or after. And it even clash today! Fate is sure making fun of me.

My wish is to go and fly a kite with her, which was not fulfilled. I always remind her but now, i won't have the chance anymore. I'm bringing all this memories with me to a new life in my new school. This should mark the end of my secondary school life and my last wish is to say the 3 words personally to you. I will still care for her, dote her from my heart and hope that she will be happy forever (:

(sorry for any typo or tenses problem)

It will be good that we can still be friends.